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[sunmon]

one is my responsibility and the other is my boyfriend.
was my boyfriend.

[lascelles]

Why, was he not happy with your "responsibility"?

[sunmon]

what?
no.
that's never been a problem.

[lascelles]

I find that hard to believe.

[sunmon]

why is that?

[lascelles]

My Submissive would not let me take on another Submissive. He is my boyfriend. My lover, I mean.

[sunmon]

wouldn't let you?
it sounds like you're the submissive.
i was already contracted to eryk before reggie and i got together, and before i contracted him.

[lascelles]

You misunderstand me. I did what I wanted, but he refused to renew our contract after that.

I just find it hard to believe that your Eryk would have nothing to say on the matter.

[sunmon]

[ she could point out that the darkling had once had plenty of things to say about her boyfriends, that it had gotten him nowhere, and that he'd learned to take a different tack, but —

it's too much context. and ultimately, that's not helpful to victor right now. ]

he knows that if he refused to renew our contract, i'd let him go.
and he would hate submitting to anyone else in this city more than he hates submitting to me.

[ but now that she's spelling it out, she has to wonder. if the darkling did refuse ... especially now that her relationship with reggie is on the rocks ... what could he get out of her? a little skitter of panic quickens her heartbeat. ]

it sounds like he means more to you than you mean to him.

[ she recognizes it because it's her greatest fear. ]

[lascelles]

[ everyone keeps telling him this and every time it hurts a little more. and every time he denies it. ]

That's not true. I'm the best Dominant he could ever ask for. He came back to me.

Is hatred the only thing keeping you two together?

[sunmon]

[ it stings. she doesn't like to think of it that way, but when he says it, she has to consider. is she just a hateful, miserable person? is that why she can't make normal relationships work, like hers with reggie?

but no. it had been true for so long, but it wasn't hatred that the darkling showed her when he brought her back to his apartment, when he washed the blood off of her, when he woke her with his arms around her. ]

no.

but he doesn't feel threatened by reggie.

and i don't have to tell myself that i'm the best dominant he could ever ask for. he's the one who says it.

it sounds to me like your submissive only came back because he got exactly what he wanted from you.

[lascelles]

[ he hardly knows her, but this is becoming strangely personal. ]

Yes, perhaps that is why he came back!

I'm not ashamed to say that I'd give him everything he wanted – and more. I'm happy that he knows how much I adore him.

If Eryk didn't feel threatened and you broke up with this other man, it sounds to me like you made your choice between them.

[sunmon]

i didn't break up with reggie.

[ her chest feels tight. ]

you're twisting things.
it's complicated right now that's all.
but not because they're jealous of each other.

[ she's the petty and jealous one, if anything. she wants them both all to herself. even now. ]

[lascelles]

Complicated? I thought you had everything under control.

[sunmon]

i have them under control.
they're not doing anything stupid. they're not pretending like they're in charge like yours is.

[lascelles]

I allow him to pretend. That is control.

[ is it......... ]

[sunmon]

you're lying to yourself.

[lascelles]

You have a Submissive who hates submitting to you.

At the end of the day, mine knows that I own him and he welcomes it.

[sunmon]

you have a submissive who thinks he owns YOU.
it doesn't sound like he's submitted at all.

[lascelles]

He is mine! I bought him.

[sunmon]

bought him?
like a hat?
eryk may hate submitting to me, but at least he does it by choice.

[lascelles]

No, it was the proof that I could do with him as I please. He welcomed it.

[ that surprised him as much as anyone, but apparently the Chevalier wants him to be in control, wants him to be the dominant. ]

Is it by choice if he has no other?

[sunmon]

you don't know what you're talking about.

[lascelles]

Of course I don't. I don't know you nor your Submissives, but it's clear that you struggle with something.

[sunmon]

no clearer than it is that your submissive doesn't care for you.