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[morozova]

And is that what you want, Alina?
To be alone with me.

[sunmon]

I thought we had already established that.
I know things have been chaotic. Neither of us has been our best. But I told you. My feelings are real.

[ and he had used that. she won't feel guilty for doing the same. even now they trouble and gnaw at her, making this hard. but she really believes that any alternative will be worse -- not just for her. for ravka. ]

I thought yours were too.

[morozova]

Then I suppose we will have to find a place to train
you.
Somewhere unlikely to draw the wrong sort of notice.

[sunmon]

There's an access door to the roof of the theater.

[morozova]

After breakfast, then.
You'll have to show me the way.

[sunmon]

Be prepared to climb.

[morozova]

How fortunate that I've had ample practice.

[sunmon]

Have you? I find that difficult to imagine.

[morozova]

Oh?

[sunmon]

It's a bit undignified, isn't it? And you're so ...

[ it's deceptively easy to fall back into this. especially when he is not in front of her. this comms device, she realizes, might be dangerous. ]

[morozova]

Polished?

( it's not the first word that came to mind. )

I did have a life before I became the leader of the Second Army.

[sunmon]

In Fjerdan prisons, apparently.

[ if she can believe it's true. ]

Has it always been like this for the Grisha? As long as you've been alive?

[morozova]

Worse, generally.

[sunmon]

Do you think that's why he really did it?
The Black Heretic.
Was he punishing them?

[morozova]

Perhaps.
Are we not as entitled to life as the otkazat'sya?

[sunmon]

What about the otkazat'sya and grisha lost to the Fold?
Weren't they entitled to a life?
They weren't kings or diplomats deciding how grisha should be treated. They were just people.

[morozova]

You're right, of course.
Whatever the intention, the loss of life extended well beyond what could ever be considered acceptable.

[sunmon]

Of course.

[ but does he think so?? does he really?? ]

Do you think it's going to be like that for me, too? Living that long.

I feel ridiculous. 😳 You've lived several lives and I'm only just starting mine.

[morozova]

No.
The war will be over, for one.

[sunmon]

How can you be so sure of that?

[morozova]

Because the war must end one way or the other.
And of all of us, you are the only one truly free.

[sunmon]

I don't feel free.

[ the cage door just hasn't slammed shut yet. ]

[morozova]

No, I suppose you wouldn't.

[sunmon]

How can you say that I'm the free one?

[morozova]

You are the only one with the means to vanquish the Fold.
Truly vanquish it.
And we rely on you and your power, but if you decided to leave, to run, it would be difficult to follow you without great risk.