well. I mean. there's different types of attachment right? or maybe they're tangled up in somebody else. Or they've got a whole complicated thing with someone they actually are trying to make a partnership with but they're not ready to get to the romance stage.
but the city says we have to do some stuff, so it loses some of the whole--connection piece. Well okay. not connection, I guess, but the like 'i'm saving this activity for the person I love' kind of thing that comes with sex, right?
yeah that last part was really hard for me when i first got here. i have a boyfriend back home. had? it was complicated even before i got here but i think for a while i still wanted to protect that somehow.
yeah. exactly. I didn't have a boyfriend. Or a girlfriend. but like. it used to mean something, right? Like--if you chose to do it with someone. But here it's like a handshake or a hug. Hey, I just met you, let me put my tongue in your mouth. Hey, you're new, I'm new, let's talk about fisting.
What?? Oh. No. I haven't. Nobody's-- not to me, at least, I think people have somewhere at some time. I mean it happens, I guess, but it hasn't happened to me.
[andddd is this the time to bring up to a stranger you accidentally texted about fisting that like maybe sometimes you've seen porn?] Yeah, I mean like you don't have to have personal experience to know things. There are books.
Yeah, I mean. There's a whole Endurance part Right? And I mean, the lady I saw definitely seemed like she was, ah, enjoying herself.
But you know it's something you have to kind of work for.
[this is a weird conversation, right? This should be considered a weird conversation. Dystopia sex hellscape has broken her. Kate hasn't even met this person properly and here she is just casually talking about how maybe she finds fisting an interesting goal sometime.
Yeah. I figure that makes it--part of the sexy part??
cool that's I mean, good for you?
That maybe sounds snarky but it really isn't. I was here like a day and decided to try some candy and then bam, knocked out quota in one fell swoop. the first month, at least.
Oh. Oh. Wow. No! Sorry, this isn't like a weird come on. I think I'd have a little more tact than to just show up in your inbox and be like 'COOL. FISTING. WANNA BE QUOTA BUDDIES.' I mean not much more. But a little more.
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I mean.
there's different types of attachment right? or maybe they're tangled up in somebody else. Or they've got a whole complicated thing with someone they actually are trying to make a partnership with but they're not ready to get to the romance stage.
but the city says we have to do some stuff, so it loses some of the whole--connection piece.
Well okay.
not connection, I guess, but the like 'i'm saving this activity for the person I love' kind of thing that comes with sex, right?
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that last part was really hard for me when i first got here.
i have a boyfriend back home.
had?
it was complicated even before i got here but i think for a while i still wanted to protect that somehow.
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I didn't have a boyfriend.
Or a girlfriend.
but like.
it used to mean something, right? Like--if you chose to do it with someone. But here it's like a handshake or a hug. Hey, I just met you, let me put my tongue in your mouth. Hey, you're new, I'm new, let's talk about fisting.
It's a lot.
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If what it sounds like is a whole fist
in
I mean
inside of someone else
then
yes.
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Oh.
No.
I haven't.
Nobody's--
not to me, at least, I think people have somewhere at some time. I mean it happens, I guess, but it hasn't happened to me.
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Yeah, I mean like you don't have to have personal experience to know things.
There are books.
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okay.
maybe.
(hypothetically)
I potentially watched some porn about it.
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seemed compelling.
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There's a whole
Endurance
part
Right?
And I mean, the lady I saw definitely seemed like she was, ah, enjoying herself.
But you know it's something you have to kind of
work for.
[this is a weird conversation, right? This should be considered a weird conversation. Dystopia sex hellscape has broken her. Kate hasn't even met this person properly and here she is just casually talking about how maybe she finds fisting an interesting goal sometime.
How is this her life?]
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i don't know
permanently unsexy
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the act of
getting more
ah
inside of you
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look i haven't had to worry about quota in a while
like ever
[ it seems like something should follow but it doesn't really. she just doesn't know how to do this well. ]
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cool
that's
I mean, good for you?
That maybe sounds snarky but it really isn't.
I was here like a day and decided to try some candy and then bam, knocked out quota in one fell swoop.
the first month, at least.
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but i mentioned it in case you're looking for someone else
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Wow. No!
Sorry, this isn't like a weird come on.
I think I'd have a little more tact than to just show up in your inbox and be like 'COOL. FISTING. WANNA BE QUOTA BUDDIES.'
I mean
not much more.
But a little more.
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no obviously
that would be weird
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also
for the record
I need you to understand that
this is not the way
that I usually introduce myself to people.
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