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[sunmon]

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cw: the usual mr ling nonsense

[sunmon]

[ oh


shit.

she doesn't like this. being held accountable for her shitty choices sucks, and so does confrontation. it's the sort of thing she'd hoped to avoid by letting the darkling take control of the situation. ]

im fine
i just dont think its good for us to see each other rn

[scarrystories]

ok.

but just so you know, i took a bunch of supplies from the studio. i was gonna buy them but no one was there to charge, so i owe u money

[sunmon]

call it a gift
if you need anything else, the studio will still be open
the darkling is taking care of it

[scarrystories]

so you're with him.

is he coercing you?

[sunmon]

[ she bites back her first answer — that andy will decide the darkling is coercing her no matter what she says, so why bother finding an answer? instead, she sits with it. ]

he tried

[scarrystories]

[ well he IS >:[ ]

okay. lmk if you need anything, i'll stay out of his way.

don't be a stranger

[ for all andy's sure this is an abusive relationship, he also knows leaving someone trapped in one alone is a bad call. so if he has to play ball with doctor evil so alina has a connection to someone, he will. ]

[sunmon]

maybe it's better for you if i am

[scarrystories]

it's not. actually, it'd be a massive improvement for me if you let me in more.

[sunmon]

you don't need my problems in your life
you could get hurt, and people care about you

[scarrystories]

my entire superpower's getting hurt.
i'm fine, i've talked it all out with Ben, he knows where I stand, I know where he stands, we're aware odds are Bad Shit will happen to us, because bad shit is always happening in this city
i'm aware of the risks, i understand i'm not going to single-handedly make things better for you, and i wanna stick around anyway. i care about you, and i wanna be part of your life here for as long as we're both stuck in this hellhole.

[sunmon]

well i'm not
i'm not ok with being another bad thing that happens to someone good

[scarrystories]

alina, you're not the bad thing happening. caring about people, any people, carries the risk of getting hurt. that's how caring works.

the worst i've been hurt, ever, in my entire life, has been related to caring a lot about good people. but that's also where the best things of my life come from. it's a trade-off, and it's one i'm happy to take.

[sunmon]

i killed reggie
i could do the same to you

[scarrystories]

or i could kill you, or a dragon could incinerate us both. this place sucks, but i'm not gonna turn away from the good things just bc bad ones might happen

[sunmon]

you could at least try to prevent it

[scarrystories]

how am i supposed to prepare for things i can't possibly foresee?

i'm not gonna isolate myself to try to mitigate the risk of someone i know being driven insane by this place and attacking me. i'm not gonna stop making friends or meeting up with people

you should worry less

[sunmon]

you should worry more
some people are more susceptible to it
some people don't bring enough good to counterbalance the bad

[scarrystories]

i don't hang out with people with bad vibes
you should try enjoying yourself more, stop thinking about how things will unavoidably go terribly and let them go however they go.

[sunmon]

i can't just not care about the likelihood of killing you

[scarrystories]

are you feeling any murderous urges towards me right this second?

[sunmon]

a little, honestly

[scarrystories]

more than normal? bc most people kinda wanna kill me a little bit

it's a mutually advantageous urge, makes for v good angry sex

[sunmon]

stop making light of this

[scarrystories]

i'm sorry. i get that it's weighing on you, what happened with reggie and that you're worried you'll hurt the people who care about you, and who you care about.

but i'm telling you, if this place made you hurt me, i'd eventually be fine.

[sunmon]

well maybe i wouldn't