my entire superpower's getting hurt. i'm fine, i've talked it all out with Ben, he knows where I stand, I know where he stands, we're aware odds are Bad Shit will happen to us, because bad shit is always happening in this city i'm aware of the risks, i understand i'm not going to single-handedly make things better for you, and i wanna stick around anyway. i care about you, and i wanna be part of your life here for as long as we're both stuck in this hellhole.
alina, you're not the bad thing happening. caring about people, any people, carries the risk of getting hurt. that's how caring works.
the worst i've been hurt, ever, in my entire life, has been related to caring a lot about good people. but that's also where the best things of my life come from. it's a trade-off, and it's one i'm happy to take.
or i could kill you, or a dragon could incinerate us both. this place sucks, but i'm not gonna turn away from the good things just bc bad ones might happen
how am i supposed to prepare for things i can't possibly foresee?
i'm not gonna isolate myself to try to mitigate the risk of someone i know being driven insane by this place and attacking me. i'm not gonna stop making friends or meeting up with people
i don't hang out with people with bad vibes you should try enjoying yourself more, stop thinking about how things will unavoidably go terribly and let them go however they go.
i'm sorry. i get that it's weighing on you, what happened with reggie and that you're worried you'll hurt the people who care about you, and who you care about.
but i'm telling you, if this place made you hurt me, i'd eventually be fine.
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you could get hurt, and people care about you
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i'm fine, i've talked it all out with Ben, he knows where I stand, I know where he stands, we're aware odds are Bad Shit will happen to us, because bad shit is always happening in this city
i'm aware of the risks, i understand i'm not going to single-handedly make things better for you, and i wanna stick around anyway. i care about you, and i wanna be part of your life here for as long as we're both stuck in this hellhole.
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i'm not ok with being another bad thing that happens to someone good
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the worst i've been hurt, ever, in my entire life, has been related to caring a lot about good people. but that's also where the best things of my life come from. it's a trade-off, and it's one i'm happy to take.
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i could do the same to you
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i'm not gonna isolate myself to try to mitigate the risk of someone i know being driven insane by this place and attacking me. i'm not gonna stop making friends or meeting up with people
you should worry less
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some people are more susceptible to it
some people don't bring enough good to counterbalance the bad
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you should try enjoying yourself more, stop thinking about how things will unavoidably go terribly and let them go however they go.
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it's a mutually advantageous urge, makes for v good angry sex
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but i'm telling you, if this place made you hurt me, i'd eventually be fine.
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