[Ianthe chose not to state that she's had two in her cunt before (though one was a toy) in the past. She really didn't think pointing out that some people want two anally, which even she wouldn't do. She also bit back the urge to point out that if Alina was interested in doing it, she needed to be able to say it. The fact that they were taking at all about this was worth letting it go, since she knew what she meant.]
It won't be as deep a fucking given angles and all unless I go real long but then I lose some control. And I won't be able to alternate penetration like if it was you, me, and say... Nikolai, for example.
[ there is the flutter in her chest to consider. the way her whole body warms at ianthe's assurance that this is for her and only her. that she finds alina worth experimenting, solving this equation.
it very nearly drowns out the bewilderment at ianthe invoking nikolai's name.
but only nearly. ]
I wouldn't ask you to do that. [ the words spill out of her mouth quickly. ] Saints. I know how you — And I just told you I didn't want to help you please Gilia. That would be terrible.
[ it would be terrible. and selfish. and now she is thinking about it for the first time because it honestly had not occurred to her before, even in all the times she had felt the push-and-pull between nikolai and aleksander. because that was a fact of aleksander, and how nikolai intervened to try and shelter her from him, and how aleksander intervened to try to ruin what she had with nikolai. her mind had entirely compartmentalized the notion. ]
[Ianthe was honestly confused about where this was coming from as it was a completely different scenario than the party. That confusion showed on her face as she turned it over in her head. She and Nikolai had trapped about this; they knew Alina would love a threesome if she was the focus of it, greedy thing that she was. The problem with the party had been the objectification. Right?]
Wait, wait. Take a breath. [She paused a second for that.] I think I understand, but listen to me. It was meant as an example, and I picked someone I get along with. Nikolai is a friend. And I believe that if I was invited to a threesome with your two that it was because you both wanted me there, for me, and not just as an accessory.
[Ianthe almost believed it herself when she said that. That tattoo around Alina's finger told her that Nikolai would always get chosen first. In a way she was just an accessory. It was very familiar territory for her. ]
I said you can ask me anything. Everything. And you can. Hell, I'd even consider one with Aleks--
No. Fuck that. I'd rip his soul out and shred it into a thousand tiny pieces if I saw him put his hands on you like that. Okay I do have a threesome line.
[ they have different ways of protecting her — ianthe and nikolai. he would throw himself on a pyre for her, but ianthe would sooner destroy the people who built it. neither is better than the other. in fact, it's probably better to have both. she'd needed someone on that stage with her, at lottie's party, just to survive. she'll also need someone as strong as ianthe if she wants to be able to fight him openly.
still. it's not relief that passes through alina's face when aleksander's name is invoked with violence. it reminds her that they will protect her, but alina is still weak, still letting herself slip into wanting his approval, wanting to feel again like she had at the little palace. chasing something impossible and letting him toy with her. she feels guilty for what she'd done with him at the library.
she's eager to bury that feeling. ]
I just don't want you to feel like you have to do something that will hurt you.
You forget, I'm very hard to hurt and I like pain.
[That wasn't the kind of hurt Alina meant, but Ianthe didn't like acknowledging the parts of her heart that weren't black.]
I'm not going to do something I don't want to do. As much as I'll say yes to you, I'll also say no. Because boundaries are important. Otherwise we'll destroy each other.
[Ianthe brushed help lips across Alina's.] And I'd rather we do that in the fun way.
[It sent a nice rush of heat down Ianthe's back. Oh yes, that absolutely did what she thought it would. Eyes shining, she grinned even as she leaned into the touch.]
Yeah. Home. I can wait that long to eat you out until you shove my face away. Let's go.
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It won't be as deep a fucking given angles and all unless I go real long but then I lose some control. And I won't be able to alternate penetration like if it was you, me, and say... Nikolai, for example.
But yeah, I can do that. For you. Just for you.
(cw: dubcon refs, threesome talk)
it very nearly drowns out the bewilderment at ianthe invoking nikolai's name.
but only nearly. ]
I wouldn't ask you to do that. [ the words spill out of her mouth quickly. ] Saints. I know how you — And I just told you I didn't want to help you please Gilia. That would be terrible.
[ it would be terrible. and selfish. and now she is thinking about it for the first time because it honestly had not occurred to her before, even in all the times she had felt the push-and-pull between nikolai and aleksander. because that was a fact of aleksander, and how nikolai intervened to try and shelter her from him, and how aleksander intervened to try to ruin what she had with nikolai. her mind had entirely compartmentalized the notion. ]
cw: threesome talk, death threat
Wait, wait. Take a breath. [She paused a second for that.] I think I understand, but listen to me. It was meant as an example, and I picked someone I get along with. Nikolai is a friend. And I believe that if I was invited to a threesome with your two that it was because you both wanted me there, for me, and not just as an accessory.
[Ianthe almost believed it herself when she said that. That tattoo around Alina's finger told her that Nikolai would always get chosen first. In a way she was just an accessory. It was very familiar territory for her. ]
I said you can ask me anything. Everything. And you can. Hell, I'd even consider one with Aleks--
No. Fuck that. I'd rip his soul out and shred it into a thousand tiny pieces if I saw him put his hands on you like that. Okay I do have a threesome line.
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still. it's not relief that passes through alina's face when aleksander's name is invoked with violence. it reminds her that they will protect her, but alina is still weak, still letting herself slip into wanting his approval, wanting to feel again like she had at the little palace. chasing something impossible and letting him toy with her. she feels guilty for what she'd done with him at the library.
she's eager to bury that feeling. ]
I just don't want you to feel like you have to do something that will hurt you.
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[That wasn't the kind of hurt Alina meant, but Ianthe didn't like acknowledging the parts of her heart that weren't black.]
I'm not going to do something I don't want to do. As much as I'll say yes to you, I'll also say no. Because boundaries are important. Otherwise we'll destroy each other.
[Ianthe brushed help lips across Alina's.] And I'd rather we do that in the fun way.
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[ she asks against ianthe's mouth, clinging to that closeness. ]
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[She gave Alina another kiss before murmuring,] Remember that phrase I gave you? Cause I'd love to hear it right now.
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[ she raises her hand to cup ianthe's face, then, smiling, adds — ] Take me home, first. But in general after that.
Feels like a good end
Yeah. Home. I can wait that long to eat you out until you shove my face away. Let's go.