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[sunmon]

what a time to start caring about what i'd enjoy
i don't enjoy any of this
but i need you
isn't that what you've always wanted?

[morozova]

You wanted me to be better for you.
To care more.
Is that not what I'm doing, here? Caring.

Then stay.

[sunmon]

caring is being here
not looking at me like
forget it

[morozova]

No.
Tell me please.

[sunmon]

like you don't want me when i'm useless to you
when i'm weak

[ had he not been so determined when they'd first arrived, when she'd lost her powers, to insist that her powers were not the sum total of his interest in her, she would not have been so surprised. ]

[morozova]

You're not weak.
You're grieving.

[sunmon]

people keep saying that
i think you're just hoping i'll wake up one day and it'll be over
it won't
you don't want me like this and i can't be the person you wanted anymore

[ she's talked herself in circles. she feels like she's spilling over. ]

forget it
forget all of it
it's fine
like i said i'll find a place and go

[morozova]

I don't like seeing you like this. I won't deny it.
You're suffering and I don't know how to fix it.
To be what you need.

Fine.

[sunmon]

i need someone to believe i'm not too broken to want

[morozova]

Is that what you think?

[sunmon]

you've never wanted alina starkov
only the sun summoner
only someone who's useful to you

[morozova]

I didn't know Alina Starkov.
I do now.

[sunmon]

then why do i feel like you're tired of me?

[morozova]

( i'm not. i'm not. stubbornness locking his jaw tight to keep the words from rising like bile. she's already decided how this will play out, anything he says will be twisted int accommodate that narrative. )

Because it's always going to be easier for you to assume the worst of me.

[sunmon]

if it's easy it's because you made it that way