nikolai thinks that she has. nikolai thinks that he has offered all his wounds to her, opened himself and let her cut deep and often. she thinks of the times that she's staggered into hurting him.
she could revise her answer. admit that it looks the same to her, that she doesn't catch it until it's too late. would that hurt him? could it be used against him? she is responsible for that, now. every time he shows her his soft underbelly and lets her gouge it.
it's not that she thinks quentin is a risk to nikolai. it's that betraying him to anyone is still a betrayal. but this, she thinks, is the opposite of a betrayal, for how it cannot reveal anything of him, really. ]
Or I don't know how to spot it when I do. It looks the same to me. When he's at some angle and when he's really giving you something.
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[ at least, not this early in the month.
nikolai thinks that she has. nikolai thinks that he has offered all his wounds to her, opened himself and let her cut deep and often. she thinks of the times that she's staggered into hurting him.
she could revise her answer. admit that it looks the same to her, that she doesn't catch it until it's too late. would that hurt him? could it be used against him? she is responsible for that, now. every time he shows her his soft underbelly and lets her gouge it.
it's not that she thinks quentin is a risk to nikolai. it's that betraying him to anyone is still a betrayal. but this, she thinks, is the opposite of a betrayal, for how it cannot reveal anything of him, really. ]
Or
I don't know how to spot it when I do.
It looks the same to me. When he's at some angle and when he's really giving you something.